Relapsing

Hi, I go by Rock <3

I’m she/her, or fae/faer

I’m bisexual and 20

I have depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts/actions, anorexia, sleep problems, ASD, PTSD, BPD, ADHD and probably more idk or can’t think of. I self harm, struggled with alcohol for a while, and have been abused in most ways and talk about it in this blog. I try to put trigger warning tags and put things under the cut so people don’t get triggered.

I DO NOT ENCOURAGE ED OR SH EVEN THOUGH I POST ABOUT IT!!!! I’m struggling but don’t want anyone else to, so if this triggers you, please block me. Please block, don’t report, this safe space is the single thread I hold on by and if I’m termed I’ll just come back (but mentally worse lol)

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I’ve fully relapsed boys. I’m kinda disappointed in myself, cause I’m counting cals again, lying, running and exercising again and i hate it cause I know it’s killing my bones, but it’s so fucking comforting and feels euphoric to see the number go down. I just want them to care. I like this problem better than the guy who’s maybe grooming me again. It’s just easier… But I know I can’t live this way I’m just killing myself slowly, in a way I can’t stop thinking is beautiful. I need help to get out of this but how? I feel so alone

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